hold me where i am

for those of us who never wanted thicker skin

Sacred AF - Ami ❤️‍🔥

Aug 21, 2026

i don’t want to be held
at the edges

i don’t know how to live there

everything reaches me

music enters through my ribs
beauty hurts
silence has a texture
longing lives somewhere
beneath my skin

i feel the smallest shift
in a room

the almost-word
changed breath
thing you meant
but didn’t say

the hand that hesitates
before it touches

i know

i always fucking know

i spent years believing
this was something
i needed to survive

something to manage
contain
harden around

feel less
need less
care less

grow thicker skin

i don’t want thicker skin

i don’t want to be
less emotional

less sensitive

less affected

less fucking alive

i don’t want to stand
at a safe distance from life
so nothing can reach me

i want it to reach me

i want music
to break something open

i want beauty
to stop me in the street

i want love
to enter my body
and have somewhere to go

because underneath
all this fire

there is such softness

fuck

there is so much softness

there is a woman here
who loves with her whole body

who feels people
before they speak

who notices everything

who can hold
the unbearable thing
without looking away

who has spent years
learning how to remain
beside herself
when everything inside her
is feeling at once

and i don’t want
to be admired for that
from a distance

i don’t want
to be looked at
and called powerful
while nobody comes close enough
to know the woman
inside the power

i don’t want
to be desired
as an idea

loved
as an image

or wanted
only where i am fire

meet me

the human

the woman

the ridiculous creature
who laughs too loudly
and cries because
the light fell beautifully
through a fucking tree

the one who wants

who aches

the one who loves
with absolutely no fucking interest
in pretending she doesn’t

meet me there

where there is nothing
to perform

where i don’t have to
turn the volume down
on my own existence
to make myself easier
to hold

i want someone safe enough
for my softness

someone whose presence
doesn’t make my body
prepare to leave itself

someone i can lean into
without disappearing

someone i can love deeply
without abandoning
the woman doing the loving

because i don’t want
to disappear inside love
ever again

i want to be there
for it

all of me

i want to feel
the arms around me

warmth

weight

breath

i want my body to know

you can soften here

you don’t have to watch
the door

you don’t have to anticipate
the leaving

you don’t have to hold
everything tonight

and maybe that’s the thing

i have learned
how to hold myself

i know how to survive
my own depths

i know how to sit
beside my own longing

i know how to make
a home inside myself

but i never wanted
self-love
to become another reason
i wasn’t allowed
to need anybody

i am human

i am woman

i am tenderness
and hunger
and fury
and devotion

i am fucking soft

so soft

and i don’t want
to apologise for that anymore

i don’t want
to transcend the need
to be touched

i don’t want
to spiritually evolve
beyond wanting arms
around my body

i don’t want
to need less

i want to receive more

more presence

more tenderness

more truth

more of the kind of love
that doesn’t ask me
to become smaller
before it comes closer

i have spent long enough
learning how to hold myself

now i want to know
what it feels like

to remain completely myself

and still

be held

Ami ❤️‍🔥💋

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